His eyes began to bleed. He stared at the computer screen for hours watching pornography. His addiction interfered with work. He hastily completed his official responsibilities to have more time at work to watch porn. His employer never checked his browsing history. This was a time before any sophistication with technology. The internet was still picking up steam.
His coworker knew about his obsession, but she didn’t comment openly. It was dangerous. He could get fired. His fantasies grew darker and more violent. He was losing control in the battlefield of the mind. His coworker silently prayed for him to win the war against his humanity.
There came a point when he couldn’t hide his porn addiction from his wife anymore. He called her insulting names and used force in the bedroom. He choked her. She pled for her life. This was not how things began. Their relationship started out so innocent with a soft touch and gentle words of affection.
He agreed to therapy to save their marriage. He described his outrageous lust. The therapist explained how pornography led to dehumanization and unethical behavior. His wife had become an object for sexual gratification without room for a heart and soul. The couple worked on their relationship. They discussed their wants and needs. They opened up a discussion about hopes and expectations.
After months of avoiding porn consumption, he purified his thoughts. He came to his senses before he lost control of his life. He regained his capacity for empathy. He no longer idolized pleasure and pain. He gained perspective. There is more to life than risqué bedroom scenes. He lived his life imagining God was watching him. He educated himself about the harmful effects of the porn industry. It was nothing worthy of imitation.
He changed his ways, and he was ultimately better off as a result. He had more freedom to express himself without putting on a show. He became more himself – pure, loving, and kind. His wife regained his admiration and respect. His career, which had taken a backseat, no longer suffered. He made progress and moved up in the company.
Freedom from pornography – freedom from bondage to sin – starts as a prayer; then it manifests as a powerful intention. The purpose is to be pure of heart. Without a pure heart, the world is easily defiled. Purity is a high ideal. It is our only hope. Without purity, we will never know true love. Without love, we will never know our true selves. The courage to conquer our demons is the only way to find peace. Without love, there is no peace.
